I got back from our Kazakhstan trip about a week ago, but have been back in Arkansas for the fourht of July, so really this is my first day back at work. I had so much fun in Kazakhstan. Everyone on the team was amazing and really they all made me laugh so hard, that i cannot even retell some stories as no one would find them as funny as i did. I loved my team and am getting quite emotional now thinking that i only have a few weeks left at my job. I hand things over to Jessica, who will do an amazing job. I am sad about the people i will miss, but truly i know that where i am going and what i am doing next, is truly where God wants me. When i first told my bosses that i was leaving 6 months ago (ps a 6 month notice is too long, trust me it is way tooo hard to not check out) i was unsure if i had made the right decision and prayed for God to lead me as to what He wanted and stopped asking to go to certain places. My prayer went from" show me your will and where you want me to be" to " i don't care what your will is, just point me in the direction and i will follow no matter what". This was what i needed, because God is taking me back to San Francisco, which wasn't my first choice, but i am in it to win it. Whatever He has for me, i am so ready. I don't look for a specific purpose anymore, and no longer ask for God to open my eyes to what He has. I have learned that sometimes being led blindly in the dark is better, because than you have to trust in Him and nothing gets between what He wants for you, because you can't see anything, but you can feel Him holding your hand through it all. That is all i need for the next leg of this journey in life.........holding God's hand while He puts me in the place where He wants to use me. Please pray as I don't take any of this lightly and really don't want to miss out on anything He has for me at this point. I think I have missed quite a bit over the past couple years, as i tried to have Him put me where i wanted to go.