Traveling With Liz

I am about to go into week 4 of school, and of course this is when it all starts. Up till now, I can kinda just mosey through class, skim readings and basically bs my way through any quiz or homework. The buck always stops when you get about a month in and realize that you have deadlines, papers, presentations and a whole lote more coming up quickly. Ihave a presentation for my International law class coming up and am seriously not wanting to do it. I am not into law (although this class is interesting) and really don't know all the jargon well enough to bs. So this weekend I will be bearing down and getting ready to take school seriously!

I was reading some friends blogs today, and made a few comments about posts and videos that were set up. I realized that I would love to one day write a book or do seminars for people on Foreign Policy. I think that many people have no idea how it works out for the US and why it is important if we let Georgia join NATO. It is something I am thinking about. I would want it to be simple though. No excesss words or jargon that no one understands. Just simplicity about how the government works and what cause/effects can happen. Just a thought on my mind right now.

So today, I was walking around campus....as I usually do to get to class...and seriously all of the sudden an inferno took me over.  After my russian class was over I decided to walk to the apt and chilll till I was not blazing hot! I quickly put on a tank and shorts and decided to walk and get lunch. One thing about the San Fran, while it is only a couple months that the southwest side gets sun, when we do it is ridiculous. I have hesitated to bring this up to any family and friends as they all live in the tropics of southern cali and would laugh in my face, but hear me out. The difference is in so cal it is hot everywhere....wether in the shade or sun, you are always hot. So there is only one dress attire. In san fran, it can be cold in the shade and hot in the sun. So you may go to a shady area and think I might want to wear pants, or I may need a sweater. Then you begin to walk and enter a sunny spot and you are on fire. sweating, because here it is up hill both ways of your walk.  Also the weather can change in a heart beat. It can be sunny and then like the plagues of Egypt, the fog rolls over and you are sol if you were wearing something for hot weather. I miss a consistentcy, even if it was a consistent miserable. Actually I just can't wait till it is cold all the time and a jacket is always a good call.

Ok, so I quit my job, and moved to San Francisco to go to Grad school. It was a long time coming and seriously is a great move for me....both personally and professionally. So I have been up in SF for a few weeks now and have been looking for a job, because as Kim knows, leaving me to my own thoughts is not a good idea. I end up rethinking things, doubting, wondering what in the world I did. The bottom line is that the move was a great thing, so my thoughts are not getting the best of me there, but why is it that I never realize what I want until it (he) is out of reach???? Kim will laugh at this, as she knows I am the biggest advocate to help others out with their love lives, but am lowsy (sp?) when it comes to my own. I don't know when I will learn my lesson, or how many people (men) I have to let slip through my fingers before I wake up? For now, I am going to do what any christian girl can......focus on my relationship with God and hit the gym. Work out so I am too tired to think about it, and also get to know God more so that I realize how much work I have to do before I am ready for someone else. That is it for now. I will keep updating on this SF life.

I got back from our Kazakhstan trip about a week ago, but have been back in Arkansas for the fourht of July, so really this is my first day back at work. I had so much fun in Kazakhstan. Everyone on the team was amazing and really they all made me laugh so hard, that i cannot even retell some stories as no one would find them as funny as i did. I loved my team and am getting quite emotional now thinking that i only have a few weeks left at my job. I hand things over to Jessica, who will do an amazing job. I am sad about the people i will miss, but truly i know that where i am going and what i am doing next, is truly where God wants me. When i first told my bosses that i was leaving 6 months ago (ps a 6 month notice is too long, trust me it is way tooo hard to not check out) i was unsure if i had made the right decision and prayed for God to lead me as to what He wanted and stopped asking to go to certain places. My prayer went from" show me your will and where you want me to be" to " i don't care what your will is, just point me in the direction and i will follow no matter what". This was what i needed, because God is taking me back to San Francisco, which wasn't my first choice, but i am in it to win it. Whatever He has for me, i am so ready. I don't look for a specific purpose anymore, and no longer ask for God to open my eyes to what He has. I have learned that sometimes being led blindly in the dark is better, because than you have to trust in Him and nothing gets between what He wants for you, because you can't see anything, but you can feel Him holding your hand through it all. That is all i need for the next leg of this journey in life.........holding God's hand while He puts me in the place where He wants to use me. Please pray as I don't take any of this lightly and really don't want to miss out on anything He has for me at this point. I think I have missed quite a bit over the past couple years, as i tried to have Him put me where i wanted to go.

SATC was so wonderful! It was everything i could have wanted. I want to go see it again, that is how good the 2+ hours were! The thing about it is, that the reality of some of the scenarios, is how life is. I loved loved loved it!